Category: Poems, Prayers and Promises

  • Words that recover from chaos and push back darkness – and Prayer for such words

    Hs-1995-44-a-web In the beginning was the Word…..

    In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth, and the earth was without form, and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep, and God said….Let there be light’.

    Speech,

    Holy Word,

    the articulation of divine intention and purpose,

    ‘Let there be…’

    Made in the image of God, we too speak,

    and what we say vibrates with possibility.

    Words call into existence,

    make possible,

    shape relationships,

    communicate meaning,

    become freighted with significance because…

    once we speak, words are let loose.

    They cannot be recovered,

    unsaid,

    and their healing or hurt may have a long afterlife.

    Made in the image of God,

    we are wise if we listen not only to what God says,

    but to how God speaks;

    and if we pay attention to why God speaks.

     

    When James tackles the fundamental spiritual disciplines

    he says little of contemplation,

    mystical joy rides, charismatic gifts,

    exciting worship, or relevant programmes

     – he speaks of wisdom and words,

    and therefore wise speaking and even wiser listening.  James 3.1-12

     

    Prayer 

    Lord we all make many mistakes in our conversation;

         the way we choose words and construct sentences,

         which temper and tamper with truth.

    The tone of voice, the pace of diction, the volume of our speaking,

         communicating impatience and self-importance.

     

    Lord forgive us when we use words as weapons to hurt others,

         or as shields to hide behind when we are criticised:

    Lord forgive us, when our words are arrogant and self serving,

         when we would rather speak than listen

         and rather be seen and heard than seen and serving

     

    Lord, whose words called worlds into being,

         Make our words creative and life-giving;

    Lord whose words wrestled order our of chaos,

         and still speak light out of darkness

    Put words in our mouth which call chaos to account,

         challenge injustice and defend the vulnerable.

    So may we too speak light out of darkness,

    through Jesus Christ,

    the Word and the Light of the world,

    Amen

     

  • Holiday doodling with words: Fibonnaci on a Clematis.

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    Blue.

    Light.

    Light blue.

    Clematis.

    Tenacious tendrils.

    Genus Ranunculaceae.

    Unlikely exotic cousin of the buttercup.

    Consider the clematis how it grows – not even Solomon's glory can compete!

    Geometry, botany, aesthetics, theology combine to prove "we're closer to God in a garden, than anywhere else on earth"!

    …………

    The picture is of the clematis that has adorned our back patio this year; the Fibonnaci a piece of holiday doodling with words. Feel free to suggest improvements. You can find out how Fibonacci works at this previous post

     

  • The pattern of our days

    300px-Vincent_Willem_van_Gogh_127 Accept surprises

    that upset your plans,

    shatter your dreams,

    give a completely

    different turn

    to your day

    and — who knows?–

    to your life.

    It is not chance.

    leave the Father free

    himself to weave

    the pattern of your days.

    Dom helder Camara, A Thousand Reasons for Living.

  • When being bold is hard to be, and being scared is ok

    You know how now and again, at church, you find yourself invited to sing something you don't want to sing.

    It isn't just to be awkward. And it isn't because you don't want to sing something you don't much care for, or it's a duff tune or one that is unsingable. It's more fundamental than that.

    You are being asked to sing what isn't true in your experience. The last place to pretend is in a service of worship. And amongst the most corrosive forms of pretence is emotional insincerity, which isn't far from spiritual self-deceit.

    Jesus japan You see, the Catch-22 of congregational singing is that while you want to share the faith of the community, sometimes you can't without being untrue to yourself. Because how that faith is expressed, and what it is declaring to be everyone's experience right now, may not be at all congruent with where your own heart is, what is so in your life, and may wrongly presuppose that it is well with every soul gathered in this place, with these people, for worship, now.

    Some time ago ( and it is a while ago) I was standing alongside someone in her own church, who was going through the most horrendous experience of their life. The details don't matter – what matters is that this person was inwardly broken, clinging to whatever faith might have enough buoyancy to stop her from drowning. And she was afraid, scared of the future, her inward defences dismantled by what had happened. And we stood to sing

    Be bold, be strong, for the Lord your God is with you!

    Be bold, be strong for the Lord your God is with you!

    I am not afraid. I am not dismayed

    For I'm walking in faith and victory

    Come on and walk in faith and victory

    For the Lord, your God is with you.

    Now I know it's biblical, it's the spirituality of Joshua, its the confidence of the conqueror and a declaration of assurance. But there is also the spirituality of the Psalmist in lament mode, and of Isaiah who understood broken hearts and bewildered spirits and people's deep fears for the future. And allowing for that, I wonder if we could just occasionally take time to sing, to each other, same tune, much less strident:

    Though scared, though weak,  Still the Lord your God is with you;

    Though scared, though weak,  Still the Lord your God is with you;

    Yes you are afraid, Yes you are dismayed,

    Because you're walking in deep uncertainty,

    We know you're walking in deep uncertainty,

    But the Lord your God is with you.

    This is a plea for emotional honesty, and emotional inclusion, so that we recognise in each gathered community, the experiences of joy and sorrow, laughter and lament, of confident faith and struggling faith, healed hearts and breaking hearts. I too like a good sing when my spirit is singing – but I need different words when I'm inwardly crying. Worship is honest when the declarative mood is sometimes muted by the interrogative mood, and worship that arises from the real experience of the life I live is more likely to have integrity. And whether I am going forth weeping or rejoicing in the homecoming, it is one of the great gifts of the worshipping community that the content of our services enables us to laugh with those who laugh – and weep with those who weep.

    I offer this not as a rant, or a hobby horse – I think these are trivial forms of complaint. I'm more interested in making an observation of pastoral consequence, and spiritual sensitivity, and human solidarity, all of which are inherent in the practices of Christian fellowship.

    The etching above comes from my personal canon of artistic exegesis – I guess at some time in our lives we are the one clinging to the mast, or holding on to Jesus for dear life!


     

     

     

     

  • Kathleen Raine, Good Friday and the Healing Reality of the Garden

    Crathes.1 The biblical narrative sometimes turns on the encounters that take place in a garden. The garden of Eden is a place of creation and destruction, of carefree joy and cosmic tragedy, of divine fulfilment and human failing. And however we read that story, it portrays in poignant poetry the two poles and entire latitude and longitude of human experience, from innocence to shame, from life affirming stewardship to earth shattering grasping. Gethsemane is the garden where the tragedies and triumphs of human  sinfulness become concentrated on the soul of the One who gathers within one human being, the cosmic and human toxins of creation alienated. The Gospel phrase for this anguish, "sweating great drops of blood", and the location of the garden of Gethsemane, make this Gospel episode a cross section of a fallen creation, exposing the age rings of human history which has sweat its own great drops of blood.

    I think it's no accident, or incidental stage setting, that the tomb was in Joseph of Arimathea's garden, and that garden the place of resurrection. There's something wonderfully playful about that line of John's, explaining Mary Magdalene's grief-stricken confusion, "thinking him to be the gardener…". Eden the place of lost innocence, Gethsemane the place of God's angst, and that morning scene of so human trauma, of grief and joy, of disbelief and scared to admit it faith – so much of what matters in our faith begins or ends up in a garden.

    Kathleen Raine wrote about the garden in terms that make it clear it is a place of healing, and not a place of unreality and retreat from the world. Her poem suggests it may be that we enounter what is most real, most urgent for our flourishing, and most telling for our humanity, in a garden.

    I had meant to write a different poem….

    I had meant to write a different poem,
    But, pausing for a moment in my unweeded garden,
    Noticed, all at once, paradise descending in the morning sun
    Filtered through leaves,
    Enlightening the meagre London ground, touching with green
    Transparency the cells of life.
    The blackbird hopped down, robin and sparrow came,
    And the thrush, whose nest is hidden
    Somewhere, it must be, among invading buildings
    Whose walls close in,
    But for the garden birds inexhaustible living waters
    Fill a stone basin from a garden hose.
    I think, it will soon be time
    To return to the house, to the day’s occupation,
    But here, time neither comes nor goes.
    The birds do not hurry away, their day
    Neither begins nor ends.
    Why can I not stay? Why leave
    Here, where it is always,
    And time leads only away
    From this hidden ever-present simple place.

    Kathleen Raine

  • Kathleen Raine and Rumours of the Abyss

    Raine Kathleen Raine's poetry is not a recent discovery for me – but it is a recent re-discovery. I'd forgotten just how perceptively she sees, and the lucid integrity with which she describes, the human condition.  And there are lines that give voice to those subterranean longings that run through our souls, their sound the distant echoes of what we have lost or have never yet found.  Her poetry is imaginative and wondering, mystic without being vague, compassionate but avoiding indulgent sentiment that distorts the vision of what life is at its most real, and what it might be if only we had the courage to see it  and say it and live it with honesty and freedom. Some of her poems exemplify the poet at her most visionary and prophetic, able to play with ideas that are light or dark, allusive yet descriptive of her way of seeing the world, and beyond. Here's one.

    WORLD'S MUSIC CHANGES

    World's music changes:

    The spheres no longer sing to us

    Those harmonies

    That raised cathedral arches,

    Walls of cities.

     

    Soundings of chaos

    Dislodge the keystone of our dreams,

    Built high, laid low:

    Hearing we echo

    Rumours of the abyss.

     

    There was a time

    To build those cloud-capped towers,

    Imagined palaces, heavenly houses,

    But a new age brings

    A time to undo, to unknow.

     

    There are few poems I know that so succinctly define post Christendom and the Post-modern malaise of the spirit, as Christians struggle to come to terms with a fading tradition, lost influence, the confused climate of moral life and the intellectual challenge of transposing the Gospel into a different key for a different and changing age.  In my own canon of poets R S Thomas comes closet to her in voice and in the unflinching honesty with which he sees the world. More of Raine in the next few days.

  • Good fences make good neighbours.

    Piled Today I'm in the fence-building business. Both sides of our gardens have woven slat fences that are greened with moss, broken and brittle and with posts that are shoogly (scottish word for unstable!) So we do the first one today, my neighbour and I, two amateurs who know how to dig holes, mix postcrete, use a spirit level, and both want a shot of the paint sprayer! As to whether the fence will be the epitome of fenceness – we'll see. But the negotiation and agreement and shared labour needed to build it is one of those episodes when social fabric is repaired and a few strands of neighbourliness woven in. Reminded me of some words from Robert Frost's poem, Mending Wall:

    Something there is that doesn't love a wall,

    That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,

    and spills the upper boulders in the sun,

    And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.

    ……

    Before I built a wall I'd ask to know

    What I was walling in or walling out,

    And to whom I was like to give offence.

    Something there is that doesn't love a wall,

    that wants it down.

    …..

    Good fences make good neighbours.

    Robert Frost.

    Frost had such a clear mind about what makes for good and satisfying social relationships. Irrascible, confrontational, unforgiving and at times downright cussed he might be – but he knew how to put into words the way things should and could be, when human beings make good choices (the Road Less Travelled) or cement neighbourliness with postrete (Mending Wall) – as in this case, fallen boulders replaced in the interlocking balance of angle and weight that is the genius of the early New England drystone wall (and the Scottish drystane dyke). 

  • Spring is coming soon – listen for unusual laughter.

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    This is one of the loveliest poems I know about that slow transition from dark days to light, from winter to spring, from February to March.

    Full of sentiment but not sentimental, because Larkin isn't remembering golden days of childhood, and he is well aware of the frostiness and chill that have their equivalent in human relationships – but Larkin's capacity to see beyond winter is optimism sensibly restrained – and "it will be spring soon" is a refrain echoing that most thrilling of bird songs, the mavis or song thrush. 

    The song of the thrush and the extending light of day are intimations of life though, new possibility, coming opportunities, including that great human healer of tired spirits, laughter. I've never lost the love of bird song first instilled in the mind but installed in the heart through a childhood spent on farms in Ayrshire and Lanarkshire. I can still identify dozens of them, and sadly miss some that used to be common – the Yellow Hammer and Curlew being two favourites now seldom heard unless you go to where you know they still have a foothold on a land so greedily messed up by us lot!

    So Larkin's poem is a nostalgic reminder that our world's beauty is fragile, is gift, and is entirely provisional on our capacity to value, appreciate and protect it. (The photo is by Nigel Pye from Aberdeen University – I found it

    Coming

    On longer evenings,
    Light, chill and yellow,
    Bathes the serene
    Foreheads of houses.
    A thrush sings,
    Laurel-surrounded
    In the deep bare garden,
    Its fresh-peeled voice
    Astonishing the brickwork.
    It will be spring soon,
    It will be spring soon –
    And I, whose childhood
    Is a forgotten boredom,
    Feel like a child
    Who comes on a scene
    Of adult reconciling,
    And can understand nothing
    But the unusual laughter,
    And starts to be happy.

    Philip Larkin

  • Forget Sat Nav! It’s Radio Four that helps you get home!

    Driving to Aberdeen on Thursday through gales and rain and surface water pounded into opaquely fluid airborne spray by anything travelling on tyres, I was listening to Radio 4. That station is an oasis of sanity, a source of solace, a conservator of culture, an always fulfilled promise of intellectual pleasure, and that without which some of us would find the world of airwaves bereft of one of our life's essentials.

    Gillian1mini I listened to Afternoon Reading: The Poet's Year, read by the Welsh National Poet Gillian Clarke, and adapted from her wonderful book, At The Source. I've just discovered Gillian Clarke's work. The reading was exquisite – from her Journal of the turn of the year, a description of harvesting honey and observing with closely attendant affection and respect for the livingness of the countryside.

    In complete contrast to the darkness of a late winter's night, buffeting gales and trillions of driven rain pellets all homing in on my windscreen, I listened to a poet reading the prose poem account of her summer. The description of honey harvest was contemplative, and quietly, trustfully, reverent of the cost in millions of bee-flights to achieve the 36 lbs of amber honey lovingly potted, sealed and stored. Now where else in all the wide world would I have been lifted from the concentrated misery of such a night drive in appalling weather, to that other place of the imagination, than in a car with Radio Four playing? Just going to listen again on IPlayer to all three episodes.

  • What Prayer Teaches Us.

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    Prayer has taught me that God is God, and I'm not.

    (Stanley Hauerwas, Interview)