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  • The Existential Folly of a Song – I Did it My Way


    RevisedThere are moments of existential folly, when the human mind and heart and will become allies in self-assertion. Instead of humility before the mystery of life there is a defiant egotism, and in place of a healthy realism about the significance of any one life, there is the strident claim to self-importance.
    The news that 30% of people plan to have Frank Sinatra crooning "I did it my way" at their funeral service merely confirms in our cultural malaise, a fading capacity for wonder, humility, gratitude and a sense of something bigger than ourselves. To read the lyrics in the clear light of a frosty day, they come across as what they are – the illusory self congratulation of one who never knew moments of transcendent questioning, the self preoccupation of one who never paid attention to those experiences that put us all in our place, the ignorance of one who ignored the many intimations of both our mortality and our glory as creatures made in the image of God.

    To have them sung, at our own explicit instruction, at a funeral service for ourselves would be the height of hubris, if it weren't so ludicrously comical. That's why I called it existential folly. It is the denial of that deeper angst and tragedy that is deeply embedded in us, and felt as longing and joy seeking fulfilment, not in self-congratulation or self-illusion. But in the recognition that though we are dust, we are glorious dust; and though we will die, yet life is gift for which to be grateful, and yes, 'for which he kneels', in grateful and purposeful strength, rather than stand in selfish, obsessive pride.

    That said, I read Ecclesiastes, and find much of this man's cynicism, worldly wise shrewdness, his poignant attempt to put his name up in lights across the night sky, is reflected in this remarkably precise orchestration of human longing and frustration. But Ecclesiastes knows how to kneel – 'Thou hast put eternity in the human heart'. And that is what the song lacks – a sense of eternity, transcendence, mystery, and therefore hopefulness.
    Me – I'm having Gabriel's Oboe! 

    And now, the end is here

    And so I face the final curtain

    My friend, I'll say it clear

    I'll state my case, of which I'm certain

    I've lived a life that's full

    I traveled each and ev'ry highway

    And more, much more than this, I did it my way

    Regrets, I've had a few

    But then again, too few to mention

    I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption

    I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway

    And more, much more than this, I did it my way

    Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew

    When I bit off more than I could chew

    But through it all, when there was doubt

    I ate it up and spit it out

    I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

    I've loved, I've laughed and cried

    I've had my fill, my share of losing

    And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing

    To think I did all that

    And may I say, not in a shy way,

    "Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

    For what is a man, what has he got?

    If not himself, then he has naught

    To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels

    The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

    Yes, it was my way

  • The Imperative of Peace and the Hermeneutic of Love

    As well as the hermeneutic of love, on which I have previously written once or twice, I am equally fascinated by the imperative of peace. I tend to think of the term "imperative" as strong and forceful, energetically purposeful, persistently assertive, likely to override other legitimate and alternative viewpoints. Used with certain other words it can be less than peaceful – for example to pursue a "territorial imperative", or legislate an "economic imperative", or promote a "political imperative", even, and perhaps especially those actions deemed to be imperative in the interests of that many headed originator of monsters, "security".

    But I'm not prepared to yield a word that is strong and forceful, energetically purposeful and persistently assertive. And while it would be nonsense to override other alternative viewpoints in the name of peace, that doesn't mean I'm prepared to surrender the moral imperative of peace-building, peace-making, peace-seeking, peace-arguing, even if it means costly peace-paying and patient peace- praying.

    DSC00096All of this comes out of spending time on the new tapestry on the word Shalom. My guide and mentor on things eirenic and pacific is Walter Brueggemann. Few biblical scholars have such a prohpetic gift of debunking, demythologising, deconstructing and de-clawing the ferocity of language used to justify economic, military and religious aggression. His wee book Living Toward a Vision is now in its third reading on my desk. Much of his later writing is in the same hopefully defiant tone of Kingdom critique of the powers that be.

    Alongside that early manifesto on Shalom, is his commentary on the Psalms a decade later with its hallmark analysis of faith, God and disrupted human experience encountering disruptive grace – orientation, disorientation, re-orientation. And that re-orientation after fear, fire, anxiety, tragedy, depression, conflict and many another sideswipe from life, is another, and life renewing form of peace, shalom.

    DSC00781Having spent some time forming and shaping words for love, wisdom and grace, it seems a providential but predictable step to bringing those three within a more practical and inclusive worldview – shalom as that which we seek for ourselves by seeking it for others; peace as both gift and goal; the common good a life aspiration because it is an essential for human life if we and our planet are to flourish; indefatigable goodwill, which means the persistent presentation of kindness, embodied expression of mercy, a continuing in the community of the love of God in Christ which is rooted in the Eternal Community of Love which is the Triune God.

     

    The God of hope, the God of peace,

    the God of grace, the God of wisdom,

    whom we know as the God who is love,

    fill us with all hope in believing,that peace is possible

    because made possible in Christ,

    and that peace-making is an imperative for ministers of reconciliation,

    and that the Prince of Peace has defeated the Prince of the Power of the Air,

    and that the Lamb in the midst of the throne

    subverts all other pretenders who clamber on to thrones of their own making,

    and God's unmaking.  

    In the name of the Prince of Peace.

  • The Beauty of Dreich

     

     

    The Beauty of Dreich

    Dreich Scottish
    mornings:

    Drizzled
    moistures coalesce,

    Liquid crystal light.

    "Dreich" – dull, wet, cold, lacking colour and vitality, an undertow of melancholy.

    But in the right place, at the right time, unexpected beauty is glimpsed, and a jewel glints in the one ray of sunshine.

  • Exegesis and Contemplation through Needlepoint…..


    I've spent the last couple of months working on a tapestry in which three Greek words – sophia, agape and charis – are woven into a pattern of vivid contrasting colours. In recent years I've been developing a form of contemplative action while doing tapestry. I mainly work in stranded cotton and with a canvas gage of 22 to 28 per inch. 


    Agape
    To spend hours stitching a word like Agape and blending colours of red and purple around it is very different from tracing the use of agape in the New Testament, and exploring the semantic domain and extra canonical occurences which give contextual texture. That too is a contemplative and prayerful study – "bury your head in a lexicon and raise it in the presence of God" – as the great Gospels scholar B H Streeter once urged his students.

    But to study a word by forming it in stitches has its own value as contemplative activity, prayerful action, meditative reflection on the inner meaning and outer beauty of a word. Image and colour, shape and form, the creative intention of the artist, bring a different kind of attentiveness no less imaginative, disciplined and valid as an attentive listening and gazing into the reality to which the word points – Agape, Love.

    The vivid and dark tone, the contrast and complement of colour, with shades merging or clashing, and shapes emerging and forming rather than fixed and formal, creates a visual exegesis of what this word means, at least to the artist. Stitching a tapestry involves combining thousands of small repetitive acts of precise purpose, each completed with careful attention to what surrounds it, yet each stitch an essential word composed into the evolving story. Every stitch demands the practised co-ordination of hand and eye, the quiet and patient discipline that enables a needlepoint to find the right square, coming back through unsighted, to complete the stitch, and with a choice of 46,080 on a 10 by 8, 24 per inch canvas.


    Mozart 2I found myself the other morning doing 20 minutes stitching, while listening to Classic FM, Mozart's Clarinet Concerto slow movement, with a mug of half drunk tea, and paying particular attention to the choice of colours for the surrounding border. Was it the music that took my mind to the First Letter of John, and agape as the test of Christian life, because the agape of God is as James Denney said, "the last reality of the universe"? Maybe so – I have a friend who insists that Mozart composed the music scores for heaven, and I'm not inclined to disagree.

    Or was it the colours themselves – blue for wisdom, red for love, green for grace – and golden yellows as the backgound, colours and ideas which invite the kind of reverie in which memorised text, significant experiences, and vivid visuals coalesce in the hermeneutics of love and longing which I for one, dare to call prayer?

  • Reading in Recent weeks – and a Long Read for the Next Year!

     

    The Typepad Help Team are working on the problem  of the sidebar feature where I usually list the Current Reading items. I'm being patient with them, because they are trying to fix a glitch and it is proving to be an obstinate glitch, and because they are courteous, quick to respond and work hard!

    So just to keep the rolling catalogue up to date, here's some of the books I've recently read or am currently reading:


    WhenWhen I was a Child I Read Books
    , by Marilynne Robinson. This has been reviewed with enthusiasm elsewhere. My enthusiasm is for some of the essays, but some of them seem less urgent and relevant. But with Robinson that means the least appealing are very good, the good ones are brilliant, and two in particular are stand out pieces of Christian theological writing. Austerity and Ideology is as sharp a critique of penalising the poor by political fiat as you will read; and Wondrous Love is an equally astringent critique of the poor stewardship of Christians entrusted with a Gospel of love but preferring a Gospel much more self-centred.

    The Mangan Inheritance, Brian Moore, is a novel I have re-read twenty years after the first read. I didn't enjoy it as much second time round. A washed up American returning to Ireland to try to trace the connection between himself and Mangan a famous and notoriously debauched poet. It may be the changed world of 20 years on, maybe I've become more morally sensitised, but the plot left me feeling the way I do when I watch a TV programme and find myself viewing something unpleasant I wish I'd been warned about beforehand.


    WhyWhy Go To Church
    by Timothy Radcliffe is a very good book. I read it over a few weeks, a bit at a time. Sensible, spiritually alert, learned without showing off, pastorally realistic, he is one of the best writers of popular theology around – and by the way popular doesn'r mean dumbed down. After scathing preachers who think they are the most important part of the sermon, this:"Our words should gather in and heal. They belong to our discovery of the mystery of God's will to unite all things in heaven and on earth in Christ. Preaching makes peace." Oh yes!

    Edith Stein. The Essential Writings, Ed. John Sullivan. This is in the series Modern Spiritual Masters – the irony of that gender exclusive name for the series is the more obvious, but I suppose Modern Spiritual Mistresses wouldn't be much of an improvement. Maybe Modern Spiritual Thinkers? Anyhow. I've only recently paid attention to the writing of Edith Stein (because of a connection with A J Heschel in a recently published book). Someone who rubbed shoulders with leading Catholic and Jewish intellectuals became herself a philosophical theologian of a contemplative disposition whose practical Christian service earthed deepest thought in daily realities. I like her.


    BrunerFrederick Dale Bruner, The Gospel of John. This is the most remarkable commentary! I knew it w3ould be for I've used his two volume Matthew commentary for years. This would justify a year in the company of John's Gospel, stimulated by a commentary that is neither technical nor popular, which engages in historico- critical exegesis but pays attention to the reception of the Gospel and the history of interpretation. And Bruner loves this text – Augustine, Aquinas, Chrysostom, Luther, Calvin, Bengel, Matthew Henry and other classics are brought into conversation with the dozen or so best commentaries of the last hundred years. I don't use the word often, indeed I don't like the way it overstates everything – but in this case I use it advisedly – Bruner's work is awesome!


  • An Amateur Social Analysis and an Appeal to the Prophets Zechariah and Amos

    Today's hot topics

    1. X Factor
    2. April Jones
    3. Jimmy Savile
    4. Personal pensions
    5. George Osborne
    6. Plus size clothes
    7. Man United v New…
    8. Weather forecast
    9. Justin Lee Colli…
    10. Cash for gold

    OK. I get it that the hot topics people Search for, Tweet at, Twitter about and conduct Facebook dialogues and multi-logues around, are simply statistics of what people are interested in at any given moment. And that they change, and that number of hits isn't the only criterion for significance.

    Still. It becomes an interesting way of reflecting what happens to be important to a whole lot of people at the same time. And if the menu, or pop chart, or hit list is a half way accurate reflection of social media activity, and as an index of people's interest, concern, curiosity, humour, it becomes interistinger still!

    The possibility that the X Factor might be rigged – that is, a Reality show (which is demonstrably UNreal), might not meet the usual criteria for authenticity, spontaneity and sincerity. Many feel cheated at the thought.

    A child is missing, suspected murdered, in one of those evil visitations that refuse to fit our usual categories of moral judgement and human responsibility. As a nation we feel judged by what happens to our children, and it is an important criterion of social criticism.

    A deceased DJ allegedly abused young girls over a length of time, in a culture where it is also alleged it was if not condoned, neither was it exposed. And that culture spread well beyond one institution, the BBC, if further allegations are confirmed. Once again if even some of this happened, it is hard not to feel some responsibility.I was a teenager then, but part of a culture where such things could happen. Now truth has to be spoken, hurt acknowledged, and where possible actions brought to the light of justice 

    Then there's the concern about personal pensions, the Chancellor's plans to save £10 billion on the welfare bill, after which it gets sillier – oversize clothes, a football match in which one player's elbow connected with another player's head, the weather forecast, an English comedian and how much cash for gold.


    ZechI have no idea how to break all that down into a social analysis that would hold water as a critique of how we live our lives today. I leave that to the social analysts. But two of the top three are about vulnerable children and young people being unsafe in our midst. I know it's not a new thing, and anyway the allegations about Jimmy Saville span 40 years or more. Zechariah 8.5 looks forward to the blessing of God when "the streets of the city will be full of the noise of children playing in the street." I'm up for that! I'd pray for that, hope for that, and not give up such hoping. But like Michaelangelo's Zechariah I guess there is much that threatens to overwhelm that hope.

    The top Hot Topic is about a TV show that by any measurements beyond money, fascination with celebrity, or lust for fame, contributes little to the end product of a good society where human life flourishes. A society where each person is cherished, has dignity, is invested with worth and offered both the freedom to be and the support of others in becoming mature exponents of that elusive essential we call humanity. Which has the same root as humility – which exists in a different universe from the X Factor.

    As for the other exciting topics, well yes, pensions and Chancellors, cash for gold, they are about money. And while the love of money is the root of all evil, that evil is magnified when the unequal world we inhabit draws down ancient warnings from Amos that vibrate down the centuries with the same message of moral peril for societies where luxury and penury co-exist, and when power talks of fairness rather than justice, compassion and, that ancient word of the Hebrew Bible, righteousness. Which we can take to mean when things are right in the sight of God, both the things we do and the things that are.

  • Eucharist, Champagne and Resurrection!

    Sunset on the mearns

    This is one of the loveliest stories I've read for a long time:

    When one of our brethren, Osmund Lewry, was dying, the whole community squeezed into his small room, on cupboards and under the desk, to celebrate the Easter Eucharist. After Communion, we sang the Regina Caeli, and then I went to get champagne from the fridge, so that we could drink to the Resurrection. I commented on how beautifully the the brethren had sung and Osmund replied that really, if his timing had been better, he would have died while it was being sung, but he had to hang on for the champagne!

    Tomorrow the Son of Man will walk in the garden

    Through drifts of apple blossom.

    (Why Go to Church, Timothy Radcliffe, page 126)

  • Brilliant

    Dandelion Haiku

    Precise profusion

    of seed-bearing parachutes:

    dandelion clocks!

  • The Cows’ Harvest Thanksgiving

    Autumn Fields

     

    Sunshine on harvest:

    throughout winter, cows
    enjoy

    straw coloured swiss
    rolls.

  • When Beauty Invades our Complacncy

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    For Von Balthasar, "Beauty is love made visible".

    Calvin spoke of the created order as "The theatre of God's glory."

    Aquinas, "Art is the promise of happiness, and the splendour of truth."

    This summer, sometimes unintentionally, or as experiments that surprisingly worked, I have taken photos which have their own persuasiveness in the argument about whether there is a natural theology, a theology of nature in which the beauty and goodness and truth of God is glimpsed. Appreciation and interpretation of images that move us will always be inescapably subjective. Not all will see or agree with or even understand what it is that moves, and attracts, and opens us up to that which is beyond mere conceptualisation but which invades our complacency with an unexpected excitement, with moments of recognition that can change the way we see the world, if we pay attention to them. For in them is the promise of happiness and the splendour of the truth that lies at the heart of all that is.