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  • I to the hills will lift mine eyes…. Learning to pray with our eyes

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    Yesterday I spent the morning helping cut logs for the woodburner. The journey took me up through Inverurie to Oldmeldrum. This is the view of Bennachie from the road. It isn't all that high but it still dominates Aberdeenshire and is a loved landmark.

    I spent some time recently pondering the psalms, including Psalm 121. The Scottish Paraphrase remains for me a devotional standard:

     

    1 I to the hills will lift mine eyes:

    from whence doth come mine aid?


    My safety cometh from the Lord,


    who heaven and earth hath made.

    2 Thy foot he'll not let slide, nor will

    he slumber that thee keeps.


    Behold, he that keeps Israel,


    he slumbers not, nor sleeps.

    3 The Lord thee keeps; the Lord thy shade

    on thy right hand doth stay;


    the moon by night thee shall not smite


    nor yet the sun by day.

    4 The Lord shall keep thy soul; he shall

    preserve thee from all ill;


    henceforth thy going out and in


    God keep for ever will.

    The paraphrase translates the first stanza as a Question and answer rather than a statement. I confess that's how I have always read it. When it all gets too much, and it's hard to see the way ahead, or our attention is so focused on the here and the now with all its demands and uncertainties, then that question is both urgent and apt. Lifting the eyes above our limited horizons and the remorseless present, the outline of a mountain forces the attention upwards, and the question "From whence doth come mine aid", is both existentially unavoidable and personally directed to God. For people of faith, the connection between the hill line, prayer and personal circumstances is only completed by that second couplet. "My safety cometh from the Lord, who heaven and earth hath made".

    Bennachie in the winter looks bleak and yet when the sun hits the snow it's also a familiar and reassuring landmark. In the days before digital cameras I was coming home from Pluscarden Abbey and passing Bennachie in a winter twilight. Flying across the skyline, against a rose and peach sky fringed with purple, a long skein of geese in chevron formation. That was another mystical ornithological moment when God seemed near, beauty laid my heart open, and prayer was in the compelling urge to stop the car and look – which I did. And perhaps such moments are best left unconstrained by digital technology. The theatre of God's glory remains a sellout of splendour and spectacle. That's why eyes lifted to the hills ask a question that most times is rhetorical, and has the expected answer, "My safety cometh from the Lord, who heaven and earth hast made."

    It was those lines that were in mind while doing one of the panels of the Shalom tapestry a few weeks ago. The tapestry is now at the framers, and consists of five panels. One each on Psalm 1,8,23,104, 121. The one below is 121 and is done entirely freehand as a visual impression of a psalm that is now embedded in my spirituality. Once the completed and framed work is back I'll post a photo of it.


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  • “Good News to the Poor?” Not a Chance!!!

    Iain Duncan Smith has insisted that he could live on 53 pounds a week

    "I could live on £53 a week if I had to."

    No sir, you could not – nor should you be expected to.

    But the desperation that makes you claim such a ridiculous improbability is part of the visual impairment of a Government lacking ears to hear, eyes to see, experience to understand and a heart to feel the rich possibilities of the people who make up our communities.

    When it comes to U turns, the transformation from weeping compassion in 2002 Easterhouse, and the body swerve given to the exhortation you preached at a fringe labour meeting in 2006 to aim at a level of income that supported and helped the poorest, requires a sufficient causal explanation for an effect that is gratuitously callous.

    Bob Holman is one of my heroes; he along with Kay Carmichael taught me Social Administration at Glasgow Uni in the 1970's. I learned from him the meaning of the word poor. Coming from the family of a dairyman on the farms, though never thinking of myself as poor even if we were, I heard someone explain how the real world works, and how it can be made to work in different ways depending on the choices made by Governments and the powerful. You, IDS, met Bob Holman and took time to see, listen and respond to people in Easterhouse, many of them on benefits, who shatter stereotypes such as undeserving poor, work-shy, benefit fraud and various other bogey words used to justify current policies.

    Last June Bob wrote in the Guardian a piece that now seems like a Micah type prophecy. Or maybe Amos who talked about grinding the faces of the poor in the dust and selling them for the price of a pair of slippers.  By the way, I suspect the slippers worn in your home may have cost the best part of a week's survival money for those on £53 a week.You can read Bob's considered outrage here

    So now IDS, you are back to stereotypes, scapegoats and soft targets for the populist right. And the demonstrable foolishness, hard to hide cynicism, or otherworldly ignorance exposed by the claim you could live on £53 per week, further diminishes the integrity let alone residual integrity of a coalition brokered on the self-interest of the parties. And I'm sorry to say, based on the arrogant naivete of those who say they know, when in fact they cannot possibly know what it's like to live on benefits.

    And as for the claim that the changes will make the benefot system fairer – I am not at all persuaded the word fair is the same as the word just, right and humane. It seems to me a playground word, used by those who think others are being treated unfairly generously. I'm more concerned about those treated unfairly callously.

    I recognise but cannotd apologise for the political partisanship of what I've written. I follow One who preached good news to the poor, and worship a God who requires that we act justly, love mercy and walk humbly, and live for the coming of a Kingdom of justice and joy and righteousness.

  • Remaking Our Planned Future – the Road to Emmaus.


    The image of this mosaic was sent to me me by a friend as an Easter greeting. It can be found in a small chapel in Ravenna in the North East of Italy. Amongst the post-resurrection stories the road to Emmaus captures our contemporary love affair with the metaphor of the journey.

    Not that our fascination with the journey is particularly remarkable. From Abraham's travelling from Ur to the place God would take him, to Moses fleeing from, returning to, and fleeing from Egypt and leading the wandering of the people of Israel in the desert; from Naomi leaving Bethlehem for Moab to her bereavement and return with her daughter in law Ruth; from Elijah's 40 day scarper to mount Horeb, the long trek of the pilgrims in Psalm 121, and Jonah's failed attempt at giving God a body swerve to avoid Nineveh; from Israel's long forced march and exile in Babylon to the triumphant return through deserts that will blossom three generations later; from Joseph and Mary's slow progress to Bethlehem, and nocturnal flight to Egypt, to their son's 40 day walk in the wilderness, and from Jesus long walk to Jerusalem and death, to the disciples long walk to Emmaus and life, the biblical narrative is woven through with the metaphor and the story of people on a journey.

    But the story of Emmaus retains its power and persuasion as a story of Christian experience. Confusion and fear, sadness and regret, broken dreams and emotional pain, minds closed to further hopefulness by the trauma of shattered hope. And yet they are travelling, as if movement at least had the impetus to get life going again. And talking as they go, because talking about things somehow eases the pressure of hurt, recognises and gives in to the human need to make sense, to put into words what can't ever be fully described. Communication, knowing another heart feels something similar, that the loss and hurt aren't borne alone, that by talking we try to salvage sense and purpose out of what has wrecked a hoped for future.

    So they walk and talk, and are joined by a third. And their confusion and fear and pain blind them to the presence of one who understands more than they have ever known. No wonder they wanted him to stay over, to keep them company. Indeed this story is one of the great moments in the Bible when our need of others, their support and help, their strength and love, is most plainly stated and most fully understood. And then the moment of breaking bread, the lightning flasho insight and recognition, and the vanishing of the one who made it clear he would always be there.

    It is a stunning story of those life-transforming moments of encounter, when Jesus is fully present to us, but we can be so inwardly focused we don't notice. And even if we never notice at the time, we look back and wonder how we got here, where the strength came from, how hope began to grow again, and our hearts burn within us, because he was there, and is here.

    All of that, and so much more, is in that lovely mosaic, an art form in which thousands of tiny pieces are arranged into a completeness that requires skill, imagination, patience and planned purpose. Not a bad description of how God works on the mosaic of our circumstances and experiences.

  • Make no mistake! Jesus is Risen! The Unambiguous John Updike.


    IconResurrectionSometimes Christian theology needs to stop qualifying and nuancing and just announce what it believes is the truth that dissolves all other claimed certainties. Now I know that when it comes to the central mysteries of our faith the last thing necessary is strident certainty, shouted loudly, with eyes closed to other possibilities and mind sealed against deeper apprehension, so that the truth so mistakenly protected is limited to our own human criteria.

    Still. There's something refreshing when someone decides to draw an epistemic line in the sand, to say it as he sees it, to do a Thomas from the other side of doubt and say My Lord and My God. That's what John Updike did in 1960 when he wrote his Seven Stanzas for Easter. Every year I read them, and smile at the take no prisoners bluntness of a poet defending a mystery by insisting on miracle.

    Seven Stanzas for Easter

    Make no mistake: if he rose at all

    It was as His body;


    If the cell’s dissolution did not reverse,the molecule reknit,


    The amino acids rekindle,


    The Church will fall.

    It was not as the flowers,

    Each soft spring recurrent;


    It was not as His Spirit in the mouths and fuddled eyes of the


    Eleven apostles;


    It was as His flesh; ours.

    The same hinged thumbs and toes

    The same valved heart


    That-pierced-died, withered, paused, and then regathered


    Out of enduring Might


    New strength to enclose.

    Let us not mock God with metaphor,

    Analogy, sidestepping, transcendence,


    Making of the event a parable, a sign painted in the faded


    Credulity of earlier ages:


    Let us walk through the door.

    The stone is rolled back, not papier-mache,

    Not a stone in a story,


    But the vast rock of materiality that in the slow grinding of


    Time will eclipse for each of us


    The wide light of day.

    And if we have an angel at the tomb,

    Make it a real angel,


    Weighty with Max Planck’s quanta, vivid with hair, opaque in


    The dawn light, robed in real linen


    Spun on a definite loom.

    Let us not seek to make it less monstrous,

    For our own convenience, our own sense of beauty,


    Lest, awakened in one unthinkable hour, we are embarrassed


    By the miracle,


    And crushed by remonstrance.

  • Liberation Theology is the original Gospel – If the Son shall set you free….

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    Amongst the many debts I owe to Jurgen Moltmann as theologian and disturber of the Christian peace, is his eye for the connection between Trinitarian theology, and the way we structure our lives – in society, in church and in our personal ambitions and lifestyle. A conversation with some students this morning produced another of those enjoyable exchanges – Moltmann's book on the Trinity was tough, at times infuriating, or obscure, they struggled with it, and except for class requirements I think would have given it a body swerve. But they all were glad they persevered, read, wrestled and faced up to Moltmann's theological challenges, and they came away with a changed view of what Christian theology and life can be, what church is, and what it means to talk of the Triune God of love.

    In one his less known books, a collection of occasional essays very loosely tied together by the title Experiences in Theology, there is a section of what could almost be called Trinitarian Tracts – 7 pieces amounting to just over 30 pages in total, entitled "The Broad Place of the Trinity". The fifth one, The Trinitarian Experience of God begins like this:

    A few years ago, in Granada, Spain, I came across an old Catholic order which I had never heard of before. They call themselves 'Trinitarians', were founded in the eleventh century, and have devoteds themselves ever since to the 'liberation of prisoners'. Originally that meant the redemption of the enslaved Christians from M oorish prisons, but not only that. The arms of the Church of the Trinitarians in Rome, St Thomas in Formis, show Christ sitting on the throne of his glory, while at his right hand and his left are prisoners with broken chains, on the one side a Christian with a crossw in his hand, on the other a black prisoner without  a cross. Christ frees them both and takes them into fellowship, with him, and together. 'Trinity' was the name for this original liberation theology more than eight hundred years ago." (Page 324)

    It's interesting he talks of the Arms of the Church – because the m osaic does indeed show the arms of Christ reaching out in welcome and firm grasp in a way that is so radically inclusive it must have raised eyebrows and blood pressure amongst the hardliners about who is in and who is out, when it comes to the Church.

    It is a beautiful, subversive, inclusive, uncompromising, boundary-breaking image, of a Love that is also all these things. 

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  • Look at the Birds of the Air: Epiphany Moments in the Company of Birds

    Epiphany moments come as gifts.They cannot be contrived, rehearsed, controlled or repeated.

    They are unique moments of insight, seeds of wonder, which grow into praise, thanksgiving and a humble surrender to the beauty, the surprise, the daily miracle of life.

    My earliest years in Ayrshire and Lanarkshire gave me a love for birds that is now part of who I am and how I see the world. I notice birds, their songs and sounds are signals and summons to attention. I trekked for miles, risked life and limb, read books and remember the first pair of old binoculars given to me by the farmer who was my father's boss. By secondary school age I was an amateur encyclopedia of evidence based research on Scottish birds. If there had been a Higher in Ornithology I'd have done it in half the time and upset the invigilator by walking out early.

    To this day the sound of the curlew, the whirring of the snipe's wings, the oyster catcher's alarm, the mimicry of a starling, the concerto of a skylark, the song of a mavis, the aerobatics of lapwings, the choreography of starlings before roosting in the hayshed, the white flash of a looping pied wagtail, the miracle of motionless flight that is a kestrel balancing in the wind, the ned-like behaviour of magpies, and the gossipping chirping of house sparrows, remind me I live in a woerld that I share rather than own. And that the voice of the birds is no lesser voice than my own.

    And some of my epiphany moments have come from a surprise encounter with one or other of those other residents of this country whose right to live, have a habitat, be free of pesticide contaminated food, and whose contribution to the richness of our lives is also essential to the welfare of our country, and our spirits.

    One of these was in 1982. Thirty years on I remember Sheila and I looking out the window at the wall along the garden that retained a fastflowing burn. The water was frozen during a long spell of frost. And sitting within 20 feet of us, bathed in frosty sunlight, was a kingfisher, hoping for a thaw soon. It is one of the most beautiful moments of our married lives which we still remember as vividly as the colours that vibrated with light and seemed to cast an irridescence across the space between bird and birdwatchers.

    That memory is an inevitable hermeneutic to this poem, which sits way up the modest list of poems that are themselves capable of being epiphanic.

    As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flame;
    As tumbled over rim in roundy wells
    Stones ring; like each tucked string tells, each hung bell's
    Bow swung finds tongue to fling out broad its name;
    Each mortal thing does one thing and the same:
    Deals out that being indoors each one dwells;
    Selves — goes itself; myself it speaks and spells,
    Crying Whát I dó is me: for that I came.

    I say móre: the just man justices;
    Keeps grace: thát keeps all his goings graces;
    Acts in God's eye what in God's eye he is —
    Chríst — for Christ plays in ten thousand places,
    Lovely in limbs, and lovely in eyes not his
    To the Father through the features of men's faces.
       As I said at the start.
    Epiphany moments come as gifts.They cannot be contrived, rehearsed, controlled or repeated.
    They
    are unique moments of insight, seeds of wonder, which grow into praise,
    thanksgiving and a humble surrender to the beauty, the surprise, the
    daily miracle of life. Praise God. 
  • Paradise Lost: Where Inevitable Human Failure meets Infinite Divine Resourcefulness

    Sorry. Not been here for a few days. Two reasons. Tired. Busy. Answer to both – take it easy.

    On the other hand I've just been reading Leland Ryken on John Milton and came across the moment of epiphany at the end of Paradise Lost, when Adam finally realises what the loss of Paradise means, and how to live in a post-Paradise world. The sympathy of the poet for the human condition, the hopefulness that even cosmic tragedy is not final in the providence of God, and the psychological and spiritual sensitivity by which Milton describes not only repentance, but the positive outcome of repentance in a life of trust, risk and obedience to God.

    Having spent recent weeks immersed in several psalms, as texts to nourish and console the heart, as poems to interpret and pray with faith defiant or reticent, and as images to stir my imagination as I worked the Shalom tapestry which is now ready for framing, Milton's pastorally valid descriptions of the heart's desire towards God resonate deeply and comfortingly. Because what is portrayed in the lines below is the reality of failure, and the deeper reality of grace; the inevitable consequences of sin, and the infinite resourcefulness of Holy Love to meet that inevitability with new possibility; and for the forgiven penitent the promise that walking in obedient trust and costly love, we serve once more the "love that moves the Sun, and other stars" – I know – that's from Dante, but why not bring two epic poet visionaries together?

    Henceforth I learn, that to obey is best,

    And love with fear the only God; to walk


    As in his presence; ever to observe


    His providence; and on him sole depend,


    Merciful over all his works, with good


    Still overcoming evil, and by small


    Accomplishing great things, by things deemed weak


    Subverting worldly strong, and worldly wise


    By simply meek: that suffering for truth's sake


    Is fortitude to highest victory,


    And, to the faithful, death the gate of life;


    Taught this by his example, whom I now


    Acknowledge my Redeemer ever blest.

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  • Learning when to shut up as a Christian virtue.

    Like many other people I have no trouble speaking, and a great deal of trouble listening. Few human characteristics serve the ego more faithfully than our ability to speak, to talk, to occupy the space between others and us with out noise, our agendas, our thoughts, and if we are honest, often with our emotional needs. One of the writers who helps me to perceive my need of words, talk, speech, that all too seductive facility with words as conduits of thought, and as vocal chess pieces outflanking the other, is Jean Vanier.

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    I have no hesitation in counting Vanier one of the most remarkable Christian leaders of the past half century. His book Community and Growth is a textbook on courtesy, compassion and presence to the other beyond myself. Courtesy is much more than good manners though it is that – it is respect for the other, communicated by service, deference and a readiness to listen. Compassion is more than emotional feelings of kindness – it is a spirit of welcome, love and acceptance of the other in their need, not as the need meeter, but as one who feels with them, accompanies them and values them for who they are. Presence is precisely what is not given if all we offer are words. Presence is most deeply felt either in silence shared, or in attentiveness to what the other says and who the other is, for it is that attentiveness, such paying of loving attention, that conveys the value and the significance of this other person, in whose presence I am.

    Jean Vanier is someone whose presence is unignorable – tall, distinguished, stooped, a face now wrinkled and set in a combination of smiling and thoughtfulness (at least as photographed on the front of the book above. Yet this powerful man, charismatic and accomplished, moves amongst many of the most vulnerable people in our world, and does so with unselfconscious humility, meekness of spirit and a contagious wonder at the miracle and beauty of each human being. In this book of letters he often talks about his own spiritual hopes and disappointments, deeply self-aware and therefore neither exaggerating his guilt nor understating his achievements. His spirit and the spirit he seeks to teach and embody is glimpsed in a couple of sentences as he tells of his inner thoughts while being interviewed for Moscow TV in 1989, at the height of perestroika and glasnost:

    "I spoke mainly  of the need for love in each human being, especially in the poorest. I spoke of love which is stronger than hatred, and trust which is stronger than fear. Throughout the interview I tried  to remain in the presence  of God, in order to speak from the depths of my heart, from that place where Jesus lives within me, and thus to speak words from God."

    It takes a saint to speak with such innocence of his nearness to God, and for me, Jean Vanier is simply that. An entire pastoral theology of speech and silence could be woven from such comments in this book of letters. A lot of them are more interesting for those interested in the history of L'Arche and the developments of communities for vulnerable people across the world. But in most of them there is wisdom, spiritual reflection, and a humane devotion to others that is so counter-cultural in recession ridden culture, that the values and convictions Vanier espouses and embodies become a powerful witness to the love of God in Jesus Christ.

  • Their prayer is in their work… and they maintain the fabric of the world…


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    These selected verses from Ecclesiasticus are amongst my favourite Wisdom texts. They capture exactly for me the importance of good work, diligent and conscientious attention, skill harnessed to creative purpose, and human activity that helps maintain the fabric of the world. The labourers and artisans mentioned here are not politicians, lawyers, academics, consultants, CEO's, movers and shakers – if anything, they are the ones who make sure that life goes on, things are done, necessities are made, and that this activity is every bit as important as professional, financial, and management in the building of community and the provision of what is essential in human life. The passage is really saying that these are people who let their hands do their talking – leaving the talking to those who have time for it!

    The photo of Paisley Abbey was taken from the steps of the Town Hall, in  a hurry, during the interval at a concert on a summer evening. There wasn't time to outflank the lamp post or move the parked cars – so it looks like what it is, an 850 year old place of worship plonked right in the middle of the town. It too shows the skill and work of those who maintain the fabric of the world.

     

    Maintaining
    the Fabric of the World

    The wisdom of the scribe comes by opportunity of leisure;  And he that has little business shall become
    wise.

    How shall he become wise that holds the plough, That glorieth in
    the shaft of the goad, That driveth oxen, and is occupied in their labours, And
    whose discourse is of the stock of bulls? He will set his heart upon turning
    his furrows; And his wakefulness is to give his heifers their fodder.

    So is every artificer and workmaster, That passeth his time by night
    as by day; They that cut gravings of signets, And his diligence is to make
    great variety; He will set his heart to preserve likeness in his portraiture,
    And will be wakeful to finish his work.

     So is the smith sitting by the anvil,
    And considering the unwrought iron:

    The vapor of the fire will waste his flesh; And in the heat of the
    furnace will he wrestle with his work: The noise of the hammer will be ever in
    his ear, And his eyes are upon the pattern of the vessel; He will set his heart
    upon perfecting his works, And he will be wakeful to adorn them perfectly.

    So is the potter sitting at his work, And turning the wheel about
    with his feet, Who is always anxiously set at his work, And all his handywork
    is by number;  He will fashion the clay with his arm, And
    will bend its strength in front of his feet; He will apply his heart to finish
    the glazing; And he will be wakeful to make clean the furnace.

    All these put their trust in their hands; And each becometh wise in
    his own work. Without these shall not a city be inhabited, And men shall not
    sojourn nor walk up and down therein. They shall not be sought for in the
    council of the people, And in the assembly they shall not mount on high; They
    shall not sit on the seat of the judge, And they shall not understand the
    covenant of judgement: Neither shall they declare instruction and judgement;

    But they will maintain the fabric of the world; And in the
    handywork of their craft is their prayer.

    Ecclesiasticus 38.

  • The Wooden Wonderlessness of a Football Pundit, and the Doctrine of Creation!


    Dont-let-the-worldI like football. I still play 5 a side for an hour on Friday nights. Each year I'm probably some centimetres slower, and some millisenconds slower on the uptake. But now and again, there's still the move, the shot, the feint, the turn, and yes, even the goal that for the senior footballer is every bit as satisfing as the straight drive for the golfer, the ace serve for the tennis player, the try saving tackle of the rugby player. Yes I watch football on TV, occasionally in the North East Arctic Saturday risk the South Stand in Aberdeen, but still nothing like scoring in the glorious ordinariness of the Torry Leisure Centre on a Friday night.

    So I feel qualified to laugh at the silly punditry of this article here.

    Premier League – Leon Osman's wondergoal: genius or mis-kicked fluke?

    What a fatuous, wonderless, unimaginative, right brain no brainer question that is! The armchair experts looking at video footage try to judge a spectacular goal on technical merit, artistic impression and amateur geometry!

    Given the combination of human intention, learned skill, inherent gift and ability, training, tactical awareness, alertness to opportunity, instinct to move and be in certain positions at the right time, team awareness and individual co-operation, the strengths of the opposition, balance, physical fitness, height (yes sometimes size matters) age, weather conditions, flight of the ball – och and any other of the multi-variables I've not mentioned – given all that it could be argued every goal is a mis-kicked (sic) fluke; and every goal is an act of genius. Neither is true or false – what it is, is a goal, a joyful indication that we are quite good at this game, a successful fulfiulment of effort and energy harnessed to purpose and held within the constraints of the game's rules and regulations!

    It is a wondergoal – the more enjoyable because technology shows you how unsaveable it was – except it would have been saved easily if the goalkeeper had also chocen amongst a multitude of variables and was standing nearer his right hand post. In a contingent creation, football is possible. Analyse it with nonsense like the above and you are arguing for a world where all that ever happens is deserved, precictable, analysable and wonderless world. 

    Or to put all this more succinctly, the so-called experts who dissect a goal, dessicate spirits – from such those who live wittily cheerfully dissociate 🙂