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  • a kind of boring tune….but cool words

    On a Sunday recently I was preaching for the first time at one of our churches. Renewed friendships with several people I seem to bump into only every few years – to my loss, and perhaps their relief. Nah, they like me too!

    As in many churches now, worship was led by others and I was only required to preach – I didn’t choose the hymns, though my text and theme were known to those preparing the worship service. The closing hymn was introduced unpromisingly as having a kind of boring tune, but the words were judged to be ‘cool’. Two things – ONE. I am well impressed with worship leaders who give enough weight to the beauty of words, so that at times a tune can be secondary. TWO – this hymn was by a country mile the best hymn we sang all morning, in the humble but not muted opinion of this preacher.

    The words are reproduced below.It appears in a number of hymn books – there will now be a rant on behalf of the Regrettable Demise of the Hymn Book party – [Hymn books – remember those ancient artifacts, they tend to be square, with hard or soft covers, churches had enough of them so that everyone got one, and between the covers there are sheets of paper printed on both sides with numbered appropriate things to sing, part of the intention being that a manageable number of hymns (appropriate things to sing at worship) would be known by the whole congregation and not require performing praise bands to praise God on behalf of a congregation once again patiently learning this cool praise song by miming words that have little rhythm, beauty of arrangement, metaphorical resonance, memorable rhetoric, in which bathos displaces pathos, and emotional me-centred feel good singing eclipses adoration rooted in the sense of God’s mighty love in Christ – which yes makes me feel good] – rant ended…..for now.

    This hymn could stand being sung as often as some Baptist churches have communion – First  and third Sunday of the month in the morning and last Sunday of the month in the evening. It was an inspired choice, and I am grateful to the worship leader for overcoming personal taste in music to include ‘cool words’ and bring a worship service to that place of response where we all, in thepresence of God, covenant together to love and serve each other, in church and world, in the name of Jesus.

    Brother, sister, let me serve you

      let me be as Christ to you:

    pray that I may have the grace to

      let you be my servant too.

    .

    We are pilgrims on a journey

      and companions on the road;

    we are here to help each other

      walk the mile and bear the load.

    .

    I will hold the Christ-light for you

      in the night time of your fear;

    I will hold my hand out to you

      speak the peace you long to hear.

    .

    I will weep when you are weeping

      when you laugh I’ll laugh with you;

    I will share your joy and sorrow

      till we’ve seen this journey through.

    .

    When we sing to God in heaven

      we shall find such harmony,

    born of all we’ve known together

      of Christ’s love and agony.

    .

    Brother, sister, let me serve you

      let me be as Christ to you:

    pray that I may have the grace to

      let you be my servant too.

    Richard Gillard, Baptist Praise and Worship, number 473.

  • Tread gently, for you tread on my dreams

    Here’s my favourite love poem, written by William Butler Yeats. It expresses the vulnerability and willing risk-taking that I think always gives love its capacity to make, and break and mend again, the human heart. And if anyone calls me a romantic, or a sentimentalist, I can think of worse epithets.

    He wishes for the cloths of heaven

    Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
    Enwrought with golden and silver light,
    The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
    Of night and light and the half-light,
    I would spread the cloths under your feet:
    But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
    I have spread my dreams under your feet;
    Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

    But I’m not only quoting a love poem as a piece of emotional exhibitionism. I am at present beginning to build some research and writing around the ideas of vulnerability, love as precarious risk, and self-emptying as a gospel response to self-absorption03footwash_s . There is a paradox in love as risk, because the prayeful hopefulness of our deepest longings arise from our being open to the presence, and the cost of the presence, of the other. Underlying the powerful undertow of Yeats’ poem is the recognition of the lover being open to the risk of rejection, hurt and trampled dreams.

    The word kenosis is usually used as a term for a certain approach to Christology. But I am interested in kenosis as a spiritual principle rooted in the mind of Christ and characteristic of discipleship as we follow after Christ, carrying our cross, and loving the world by self giving service, generous space creating hospitality and love that eschews calaculation in favour of risk.

    ‘He was rich, yet for our sakes became poor, that we, through his poverty might become rich’. Is it stretching too far to see the self-emtpying Christ of Philippians 2, taking the form of a servant, obedient even to death on a cross, as God in Christ spreading his dreams under our feet….tread gently for you tread on His dreams….for you, and a broken but loved creation.

  • Commemorating Ordination 9:

    1997 J R Watson, The English Hymn.

    Another of those sumptuous Oxford hardbacks that cost more than my first car. This is the definitive literary history of the hymn, written elegantly and with both authority and lightness. One of my side interests is Evangelical hymnody and the role of hymns in the formation and re-formation of evangelical theology and culture. Watts and Wesley broke moulds as they expressed evangelical experience in lyrical poetry set to music; Newton and Cowper’s Olney Hymns set profound and personal experiences alongside ordinary piety in the Olney Hymn Book; Sankey showed the evangelistic possibilities of spiritual sentiment set to music, and Frances Ridley Havergal was the lyricist of Keswick consecrational praise….and so on.

    1998 Belden Lane, The Solace of Fierce Landscapes.

    The title is enough to commend this book. It is movingly written as a theology of the desert and the mountain and the wild places, where the only solace is the trust that God is not absent. Intermingled with Lane’s reflections on accompanying his mother through terminal illness, this theologian of desert spirituality writes a powerful and at times rather scary account of the love of God that is not always, even often, cushioning presence. God’s presence, loving yet at times severe in its mercy, can be aching absence or challenging call to follow into that place where, stripped of all the other things we humans cling to, we finally sense the presence and solace of God. I can’t describe this book easily – it was disturbing and refreshing. Bought in a huge bookshop in Hanover, New Hampshire while visiting my good friends Bob and Becky – Becky sometimes visits here, so leave a comment and say we behaved while we were there Becky!

    1999 Howard Marshall, The Pastoral Epistles (International Critical Commentary)

    This book was self recommending, and on the Pastoral Epistles was an obvious choice for an ordination anniversary. Alongside Phil Towner’s Commentary in the New International Commentary on the NT Series, also on Timothy and Titus, I’m not sure much more has to be said (in English) beyond these two benchmarks. By the Way, Towner’s was the volume I bought in 2006 for an ordination present to myself!

    2000 Walter Brueggemann, Old Testament Theology

    I can be quite smug about the fact that I was reading Brueggemann avidly long before he became the celebrated, opinionated, brilliant scholar-writer he now is. This is the culmination of a lifetime’s provocative, imaginative, bold and creative encounter with the Old Testament text, which he applies with razor sharp intelligence to the political structures, the social oppressions, the moral scandals of the ancient – and the modern – world. American Republicans are not amongst his most devoted admirers! His book of prayers and meditations, Inscribing the Text, is one of the best indicators of the spirituality, personal, liturgical, political and theological – of this Lutheran magister of Old Testament interpretation. I’ve got a shelf full of this man’s writing – and I doubt if there are three consecutive pages anywhere that don’t make you grab your Bible and see for yourself if you agree with him – and whether or not you do, how many other writers make you grab your Bible so fast, huh?

  • He made the stars also…the greatest theological throwaway line?

    Images of space, stars and all the stuff that’s out there I’ve always found fascinating. Hubble images make me think of John 1 and the hymn to the Logos, the Word. ‘In the beginning was the Word…..’

    188691main_image_feature_908_5163_2  Aileen, my daughter, my pal and my humility level monitor, sent me this picture from NASA. She thinks it’s cool – I agree. I love the throwaway line in Genesis, ‘he made the stars also’, stars as an afterthought of Israel’s theologian, telling the story of how all things came to be, a dig at the Babylonians and their belief in the power of the stars. Not so Israel’s God – their God manufactured, shaped, crafted, set in place, arranged in infinitely intricate cosmic filigree, the stars. And when they come out it’s in God’s timing not theirs; and their movements are his to command and choreograph. Genesis isn’t about proving this or that scientific theory, it’s about the theological checkmate of Babylonian power by telling the story of the Creator. Psalm 8 rings with the same defiant praise…when I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers….what are human beings like us, that you care for us? The answer to that question is found in the deep dazzling recesses of divine love working out eternal purpose…the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld his glory….full of grace and truth….God was in Christ reconciling the world to himself…making peace through his blood shed on the cross.

  • Commemorating Ordination 8. Great Books

    1996 David Denby, Great Books

    21t6wtkts3l__aa115_ One of the great literary and cultural arguments for the last generation has been whether or not there is a Western Literary Canon. And if there is, is this a good thing? Isn’t it the case that those who say what the great books are, have the advantage of dictating literary and cultural values? Classics are attributed an authority that can be used as a way of silencing, marginalising, even rubbishing the voices that don’t fit the favoured elites and empowered cultural norms. After all why should George Eliot’s Middlemarch represent the great novelist’s literary benchmark, and Bridget Jones be dismissed as chick lit? Or why should Homer’s Odyssey be given canoncial status and placed on a different literary level from Lord of the Rings, arguably the greatest quest fantasy of the 20th century? And is Jane Austen the epitome of literary craft and human observation or at best a more or less boring, perhaps an occasionally amusing writer, who pales alongside today’s more emotionally outspoken and psychologically informed writers like Margaret Attwood, Anne Tyler or Penelope Lively?

    148_profile I bought David Denby’s, Great Books, to commemorate my ordination in 1996, and to indulge my passion and interest in the influence of reading, and the role of books as great literature on the culture of the individual mind and of any given society. David Denby was in 1996 Film Critic for the New York Magazine (still is I think). In 1961 as a student he took the ‘Great Books’ course at Columbia University but didn’t take it all that seriously. So 30 years later he went back to take the course again, as an experienced, mature, hardened social and media critic, and to do so in a class, interacting with the students and ‘instructors’. The book is the account of that year – and it is wonderful reading, at times annoyingly clever, but mostly honest and wise. He describes lying on the sofa reading and trying to ‘get’ Kant, feeling the heart-rending tragedies of Sophocles, amazed at the subtly cynical but politically effective power plays of Machiavelli, bemused by Hegel, won over by Jane Austen, going with the flow (of consciousness) that is Virginia Woolf’s take on human experience….and so on throughout the whole academic year.

    Denby summarises and criticises, respects but isn’t intimidated by this exploration of great literature; arguing with mostly everyone, just as often humbly listening to students half his age who are an entire culture removed from Denby’s generation, sometimes he is arrogantly declaring what this or that means, must mean, might mean – but through it all trying to hear what these great books say about what it means to be human, to live a human life, yes to LIVE a human life. I would have to say for myself I learned more about human existence and reflection in this book than in a dozen theology monographs. This is a modern encountering the post-modern in the classroom thirty years on.

    Denby is passionate about what he writes here – this year back at Columbia clearly deepened the irrigation channels in his own spirit. Here is his own description of the ennui that drove him back to school, the creeping boredom that comes from being saturated by media images, the mind being deprived of reflective substance, the emotions depleted from overstimulation and moral muscle atrophied through lack of sufficient exercise:

    By the early nineties I was beginning to be sick at heart, sick not of movies or movie criticism but of living my life inside…the society of the spectacle – that immense system of representation and simulacra, the thick atmosphere of information and imagery and attitudes that forms the mental condition and habits of almost any adult living in a media society. A member of the media, I was also tired of the media; I was more than uneasy in that vale of shadows, that frenetic but gloomy half-life filled with names, places, chatter, acts, cars racing, gunshots, expertstalking, daytime couples accusing one another of infidelity, the sheer busyness of it all, the constant movement, the incredible activity and utter boredom, the low hum of needs being satisfied.

    That last italicised phrase is the clue to the book. Denby went looking for substance, not to have needs satisfied, but to understand the nature of human longing that gives rise to needs, to encounter the tragic and the comic, the romance and the quest, the philosophical search for enlightenment and the poet’s quest for meaning. And he went looking for all this in the great books of the Western Canon.

    Here is Denby again

    I know longer knew what I knew. I felt that what I had read or understood was slipping away. I possessed information without knowledge, opinions without principles, instincts without beliefs. The foundations of the building were turning to sand while I sat in the upper balconies looking out at the sea. Feeling the wiggle, I knew I was in trouble. I sensed my identity had softened and merged into the atmosphere of representation, and I couldn’t quite see where it ended and I began. My own memories were lapsing out into the fog of media life, the unlived life as spectator.

    As a Christian, a preacher, a pastor, and as a human being first of all, I found this book to be quietly but persistently an argument for recovering the power of literature to shape and enrich, to inform and nourish, to deepen and in the end to humanise, human life. I’ve read this book three times and expect to enjoy it again.

    And it is ridiculously cheap on Amazon – which tends to suggest not everyone thinks it’s as wonderful as I do. Don’t care! Or as Catherine Tate might say, (and with due acknowledgement of the source!), in language unlikely to establish itself in the Western Canon, ‘Not bovvered’!

  • Not Bovvered!

    Now I know there is a massive yawning linguistic, ethical and cultural canyon between the average Evangelical church and popular media sharp-edged comedy productions such as Little Britain. So what in heaven’s name (and yes, I mean, in heaven’s name), were the Christian Publicity Organisation thinking of (or not thinking), when they borrowed without permission, several catchphrases from the Little Britain scriptwriters for some of their Bible posters?

    ‘Yeah, but, no but, yeah’ is used to head a poster about ‘always being ready to give an answer for the hope that lies within’. ‘Not bovvered’, Catherine Tate’s schoolgirl in yer face mantra was another phrase  used as a lead in to a Bible verse. Now apart from not seeking permission, which is indeed a matter of honesty, the whole ethos of the comedy stable in question is deeply hostile to convictional Christianity of any flavour, let alone Evangelical Christianity. So what were they thinking of? Now they’ve had to withdraw the posters and the lawyers are arguing about legal redress. Hard to see how you make the Bible more accessible by linking it with its cultural and ethical opposite. Own goals are always embarrassing. You can read about it here in the Scotsman.

  • Commemorating Ordination 7: Jesus and the Shalom of Israel

    I hadn’t really intended to let a few reflections on previously bought books grow into a series – but I now find it personally intriguing trying to trace some of my footprints through books bought years ago because they were significant at the time – and now might not be, or might still be. Apologies for what is therefore becoming self-indulgence!

    1994 Joel Green (ed) Jesus of Nazareth Lord and Christ.

    Marshall This is the sixtieth birthday collection of essays in honour of Howard Marshall. Thirty essays, and only one by a woman – Ruth Edwards, herself a careful, unassuming but deeply learned New Testament scholar, and dedicated Episcopal priest. But there are some important essays here – some of them heavy going. Such essays date quite quickly, and some of them have already been overtaken by scholarship, sometimes by the essay writer’s own developing thought. But most of Howard’s main areas of biblical interest (which are remarkably wide) are represented. I value the book for reasons of personal friendship, and because I think Howard Marshall’s contribution to New Testament scholarship and to Evangelical credibility in the academy, is in the same tradition, and on the same scale, as his mentor F. F. Bruce.

    1995 S. M. Friedman, Abraham Joshua Heschel and Elie Wiesel: You are My Witnesses.

    0824505425_01__ss500_sclzzzzzzz_v11 My view of the world, of faith, and of how faith and tragedy combine in the deep moments of personal and moral life, is long indebted to these two Jewish thinkers. Heschel (is that not a wonderful face on the book cover?) was a remarkable thinker, whose work on the prophets and the pathos of God represents some of the most profound theology and humane reflection I have ever read. It deeply influenced Moltmann. Elie Wiesel (pictured below) is a holocaust survivor whose writing is dedicated to ensuring that the world never forgets the story of mechanised evil and genocidal hatred that befell central Europe. Wiesel’s two volume autobiorgaphy, All Rivers Run to the Sea, and The Sea is Never Full, I read while on holiday in Yorkshire – they are a remarkable account of a human life lived in the shadow of great evil, and refusing to allow his humanity to be eclipsed by the memories of such moral horror.

    Wie0_image Friedman’s book examines the life values of these two Jewish thinkers, one a devout philosopher, the other an agnostic novelist, both of them men whose writing glows with morally generated power. Reading this I was conscious of two people, whose life experience and intellectual legacies require those of us who are Christians to read them humbly, and thank God for their capacity to construe and construct a worldview lacking in that embittered hostility that inevitably ignites enmity. They represent the ethical genius of Judaism. They are the obvious riposte to those who say religion per se is inevitably the source of violence, hatred and enmity. As a book to commemorate my ordination to Christian ministry, it compelled searching reflection then, as now, on the relationship between God’s ancient people, and the Church of Jesus Christ, within the family of faith that traces its genealogy to Abraham. Shalom.

  • Commemorating ordination 6. Gospel, Mission and Scotland

    1991 John Ashton, Understanding the Fourth Gospel.

    51h2t9vj35l__bo2204203200_pisitbdp5 Along with the likes of C. H. Dodd, John Robinson, Stephen Smalley and Raymond Brown, this massive monograph by Ashton holds its own on my shelves as an elegant and encylopeadic account of how John’s Gospel has been understood , especially through the lens of Bultmann. Ashton brilliantly commented that Bultmann asks all the right questions and usually gets all the wrong answers. But another master of Johannine scholarship, B. F. Wescott famously said that he would give a First Class Honours to a student who could write a first class examination paper which asks the right questions. This was the summer read the year that my own book on Evangelical Spirituality was published. Ashton on John provided a different scholarly landscape (and refreshing relief) from the history of Evangelicalism, biography and desk-loads of primary Evangelical literary outpourings.

    1992 David Bosch, Transforming Mission.

    41jk2wdtgsl__aa240_ This is one of the great Christian books of the second half of the Twentieth Century. Along with Newbigin, Bosch put missiology right up the theological agenda for many of us. I read this book throughout Advent and preached on Christmas and Mission for four Sundays. I still have the sermons, and I can still remember the mind expanding scale of this marvellous book. The pencil marks and comments are like footprints of a long satisfying journey. As a minister, preacher and Christian trying to get a sense of the scale of the Gospel / culture / church equation, this book provided an utterly dependable orientation.

    1993 Dictionary of Scottish Church History and Theology.

    Tartan_shirts_ After I bought this I was sent a review copy! So a pal got a freebie. There’s nothing else like this volume. For Scottish Christians interested in our own wee (but rich and influential) cluster of Christian traditions, this volume is all but indispensable. Now out of print – a casualty of a great Scottish Publisher, T&T Clark, being absorbed and assimilated by the globalising BORG – it can only be bought second-hand usually requiring a mini-mortgage. There’s hardly a week goes by but I have this book open. There are some gaps, and some of the articles reflect the views, even prejudices of the writers, but it’s a five star book nevertheless.

  • To Oxford and back

    Quadcol_2  Tuesday to Thursday has been spent in Oxford meeting with the staff of the other UK Baptist Colleges. This is always a rewarding few days – networking sounds far too mechanical and functional for what takes place. Someone in chapel during prayers gave thanks to God for friendships that are mature and enduring, and others that are now forming, and that seemed to be much nearer the reality of what it means to gather, listen, talk, learn, laugh, pray, share meals, be made welcome in the life and affections of others.

    The main discussion focus was our shared work on exploring then beginning to formulate a framework for good practice in ministry. Lots of thinking was already in place from a previous meeting – and we were wisely and creatively led towards a more concretised form. Now I didn’t like the word concretised, and still don’t – but – if I allow that to become an image of a path (even a concrete one!), on which people are invited to walk, then that’s part of a nobler tradition of following after Christ, or as St Benedict would say, running on the way of Christ.

    396274 Of course I did indeed visit Blackwell’s, and spent nothing there! Oh not because there weren’t any books I wanted / needed / liked / coveted. But I did note several for future further consideration. I did however find St Philip’s Books, what you might call a discerning second-hand bookseller, who knows the value of his stock and sells it just this side of reasonable. I found the Gifford Lectures of Karl Barth, The Knowledge of God and the Service of God, faded spine, solid clean copy, and as earlier noted, the price just this side of reasonable. I’m looking forward to reading Barth’s Gifford Lectures. Lord Gifford’s endowment was aimed at promoting Natural Theology, and these lectures were delivered by the arch-enemy of all Natural Theology. Barth must have hugely enjoyed standing on that prestigious platform, his lectures (and his own sweeping theological landscape) assuming the futility of the entire Natural Theology enterprise – and based not on science, philosophy or natural history, but on the Scots’ Confession. Once I’ve finished Hauerwas on Barth, I’ll read Barth.

    Stuart and I drove down in my car – now here’s the puzzle. How come my insurance company quoted £30 to add his name for a week, but could add it to the policy for a year for £18?  Now I’m sure somewhere in the mystic, apophatic depths of insurance company risk assessment software, there is an explanation – for now, like a good theologian confronted with infinity, paradox and eternity, I recognise mystery, the finite reach of the human yearning to know, acknowledge with humility the need for intellectual reserve, and live content in the knowledge that somewhere, some time, all mysteries will become clear. But for now I look through a glass darkly…..

  • Commemorating Ordination 5. Philosophical Theology and Pastoral Doctrine

    Pfiddes_small_2 The book I bought in 1990, to commemorate my ordination was, Paul Fiddes, The Creative Suffering of God. This wasn’t the first of Paul’s books I bought, (it was – and remains, the dearest!), and it persuaded me that there is theological congruence in the notion of a God who suffers creatively, freely and redemptively. Not the easiest book – but how could it be with a subject which pierces to the core realities and mysteries of tragic yet creative suffering, faces honestly the bliss and anguish of human existence and the divine-human relationship, and does so by sweeping critically and constrcutively across a broad range of Christian theological proposals.

    5180v3xx0kl__aa240_ Inside my copy is a letter from someone whose life partner had died, tragically young, and had left a family still with much of its growing up to do. It is a note of gratitude to me, but more significantly the words cannot obscure the questions, the anger, the existential resentment that for one bewildered family, the defining relationship of life was ended. This is a book of rigorous sytematic and philosophical theology, but written by a theologian alert to the pastoral relevance of our deepest thinking about God, and who refused then, as now, to minimise questions for the sake of convenient answers. One reviewer pointed out how unfortunate that there was a second D in the surname – Fides = faith, which is what Paul’s life has been about, to the great enrichment of all of us.

    This book helped me in the privacy of the study, to pray to a God who freely chooses to suffer in the creative, redemptive love that is divine, who became flesh and dwelt amongst us, and whose Being is an eternal communion and interchange of Love, giving, creating, sharing the Divine life, in the great lived out narrative of God’s eternal purpose. And it did so by making me think – hard – honestly – deeply, about the God I believe in.

    5170rqgvsxl__aa240_ The book I’ve just finished reading, The Work of Love: Creation as Kenosis, ed. John Polkinghorne, has an essay in it by Fiddes which continues his reflection on what it might mean for God to freely create those who, in order to grow into divinely intended freedom of love and fullness, chooses to forego absolute control over ultimate outcomes. The work of love is that the Triune God will eternally, persistently, patiently, redemptively work, with creative passion and vulnerable self-giving, till all creation sings, in a performance that will never end and therefore need no final encore!